bite of thought 2

"assalamualaikum w.b.t."

..all thoughts come crossed my mind,neither positive nor negative..

it can't be helped.,

coz syaitan is everywhere.

oh, i forgot about Human Right examination which i just faced, not yet passed.

"kelakar kan? baru je lepas exam, trus dh lupa nk bersyukur"

Alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah..

although i'm not fully prepared like everyone else..

reading those papers like "acuh-tak-acuh"

because of those words are like "timbul x timbul" (effects from photostat)

but, alhamdulillah..i passed to answer all those questions without knowing the true answer (ye lah kan)

hm..but the point i want to blow out is not about the examination,

but, the HR itself..

somehow, i suddenly getting exaggerated when i see this point..

wait, (while open the HR paper)

"Universal Declaration of Human Rights

Article 19: Everyone has the right to freedom of opinion and expression; this right includes freedom to hold opinions without interference and to seek, receive and impart information and ideas through any media and regardless of frontiers

Article 20: Everyone has the right to freedom of peaceful assembly and association. No one may be compelled to belong to an association"

seriously, this things happened a few days ago,

i attended one musyawarah which i prefer to keep it as a secret..

okay. actually it started when i have been chosen to be one of the members of a program ( 2weeks before the musyawarah )

then the Head of the program told me to come..

oh, okay. it is an order. so, i have to come "lah kan"..

although that time there were so many things to be settle..

but i take it as the way of learning from Allah to use my time wisely.

( sorry, i will make it short)

okay,okay. the meeting starts smoothly..

yet i realize that i am the youngest ( so i just keep silence)

then..bla..bla..bla..

then.. i heard something that was not usually been heard by me.

( before this, i really wanted to hear this, but not yet get a chance )

"we do this thing because we doesn't want other association like ****** and ****** to interrupt with our junior before us. we want to 'catch' them within our big association"

"if you want to know why, ask me after this musyawarah"

erm. i don't know how exactly reaction i must react.

and how exactly expression i must express.

but, actually, my heart doesn't feel good.

i'm curious,

is this the exactly the way we react with other muslims ?

based on my own experience, they didn't ask us to do BAD things.

yet i am not knowing what had happened before.

YES, I DON'T KNOW.

but please, don't tell others, " oh, kau jangan masuk geng tu, geng tu jahat"

because it has been a nightmare to me.

before i step my foot on this land of egypt,

i happened to meet a senior..

he/she also study in egypt.

usually, we as a junior would ask,

" camne ye kat sana nanti? best x? nk bwk ape?"

then he/she just answers my question.

then he/she starts to say,

"ha, ko nnti jgn masuk ****...bykla isu timbul kat sini..p'gaduhan..etc..dsbbkan tu"

i was curious, but i don't feel to ask that time.

 so, in egypt, i meet the ****** that i heard from him/her

i am afraid because i was totally influence to what he/she said

i thought the people involve in ****** will force us to join them.

but they are TOTALLY not like what i have been expected !

oh Allah, what have i done ?!

i've been expecting badly so much about them..

i blame myself for being too influence

i blame myself for not judging them with my own eyes

i cry because i feel so bad about myself

it sounds extreme, but it is reality.

yes, i am easily influence with what people say

oh Allah, please help me to not judge people before i experience it myself AGAIN. !

SO, i do not what this thing happen to my junior.

LET THEM think by themselves

LET THEM see what they should see and get experience

LET THEM judge with their own way

LET THEM choose their own path, (we can show them guideline, but not an order).

إِنَّمَا الْمُؤْمِنُونَ إِخْوَةٌ فَأَصْلِحُوا بَيْنَ أَخَوَيْكُمْ وَاتَّقُوا اللَّهَ لَعَلَّكُمْ تُرْحَمُونَ }الحجرات10

"Sesungguhnya mukmin itu bersaudara" (Surah al-Hujuraat:ayat 10)

=.=

 BTW,

ahlan. ahlan to all juniors,

please have a great memories here in egypt.

RABBUNA YUSAHHIL !

*all those things were just my own OPINION, i am not trying to blame anybody. feel free to comment. and feel free to correct my grammar. and insyaAllah, i will not judging you with what u will be saying. thanks. :)